Post-op doodle

Passion, exploration, connection, genuineness, honesty, compassion, and optimism. These are the things that I truly value.

Not saying what I value is limited to these seven things – but, these are the tip of the iceberg for me. I established these back in September (YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR UNTIL ITS MAY AND YOURE THINKING BACK TO SEPTEMBER). And daily, I’ve strived to live my life as a person that’s trying to abide by and stay close to these values.

Note. I established these in September. So, it’s been awhile. And me, being the busy, flaky girl that I am, sometimes get too much on my mind and forget to remind myself as often as I should of what I value. I sometimes go moments, I’ll admit, even days, where I don’t think about what I’m doing to bring myself closer to my values. 

Embarrassing for me to admit. I guess after awhile I just felt like I’d fallen into a pattern of abiding by my values and doing things in each moment to bring myself closer to them that I didn’t feel like I needed the constant reminders.

Wrong. In each and every moment, I’m blessed with a brand new opportunity to become closer to the human (my best self) that I’m trying to be. 

What kind of person do I want to be? What kind of person do you want to be? How can you bring yourself closer to that person? What are you doing to become that person?

Know what you stand for, know what drives you, know what you value. So you can know what kind of person you are/want to be/are striving to be. 

Love you all, keep on keeping on 🙂

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Evening rant.

SO I KNOW IT’S BEEN AWHILE SINCE I’VE BLOGGED.

And to be honest, I didn’t think I would blog again. But. I don’t bleed, I write. So, I’m writing on an issue that is so very near and dear to my heart and my identity.

Tonight, I instagrammed a picture that had this written inside of it…

“There’s a lot of unspoken pressure to keep liking the things you used to like and to keep dressing the way you’ve always dressed and to never question what you believe in and basically “be yourself” has slowly morphed into “be what everyone knows you as” but trust me when I say if you just give it up and simply make decisions and take actions based purely on what would make you happy, you’ll gain a very comforting sense of self peace.”

I FEEL SO STRONGLY ABOUT THIS. I FEEL SO, SO, SO STRONGLY ABOUT THIS.

Guys, listen up. I know I come across as being confident and I know I come across as being outgoing and I know people think I’m eccentric or weird or different or not mainstream or God knows whatever people say about me. I know all of that. And I take it all (most of the time with a grain of salt), and listen to them, thank them, and don’t factor it in to who I am.

My brother calls me weird and a hipster all of the time. My mom has no words to describe me but unique. Peers have told me, and their other peers, that I’m fake, too open, too weird, too outgoing, too loud, too passive, too sarcastic, too MUCH, God, people have said these things to my face and behind my back. Over the years, I’ve had my fair share of gossip said about me. People have made fun of me for doing every little thing in the book and to this day, people still do. Usually days don’t go by where I don’t hear something someone’s said about me that was meant to be negative or condescending or offensive. I’m not friends with the same people I’ve always been friends with, I’m not the same human I’ve always been. Over the years, I’ve gone through quite a lot of changes and in NO way am I the same human I was in the sixth grade. Or the eighth grade. Or the tenth. Or last month.

AND WHO ARE YOU ALL TO TRY TO DEFINE ME!? I am nothing that you all say that I am. I am whoever I want to be. I am whatever I want to be in any given moment on any given day in any given fashion. Just because someone says I am something, or says that “I’m not cool enough to do that,” or that something is “very unlike me” does not mean that I should be stopped.

Yo, girls especially, because we all know how much girls gossip, listen to me. You are whatever you want to be. It does not matter if people tell you it’s not like you to act that way, or say that, or dress like that, or hang out with those people. If those people are so concerned with trying to keep you in this little square mold they have built for you, what does it say about them?

It says they can’t adapt to change. It says they are not strong enough people in their own identity to accept that you’re maturing and blossoming into the wonderful human being you were meant to be.

So you wake up tomorrow, and you want to dye your hair black. Or you want to start really trying in school and start making good grades. Or you want to sit with a totally new group of people at lunch. DO IT. Sure, you’re going to have some backlash and people are going to ask you “why you’re acting weird” or “what you’re doing…” look at them, smile, and tell them YOU’RE DOING YOU. You are doing whatever you can in each and every moment to bring you closer to an inner sense of happiness. And you know what? You do that, and people will admire you. The backlash will get fewer and their voices will get quieter and people will see you setting this example, and think, hey, I can be whoever I want to be too.

Please, please, please do not let other people’s words that come from their own insecurities define who you are as an individual. IT IS OKAY TO CHANGE WHAT YOU LIKE TO DO, AND SAY, AND ACT, AND WEAR. IT IS OKAY.

That is all.

It felt nice to write 🙂

BYE BYE

It is with a little bit of a hesitation to say I am bringing my blog to a close.

It’s been real, it’s been fun. I love you all and I hope you all find the extra in the ordinary!

BE HAPPY AND LOVE YOURSELF.

BYE

~~~xoxoxo julia loves me~~~

Sometimes what you need is to watch Friends on the couch and eat an entire pint of chocolate fudge brownie icecream. And that’s okay. GIVE YOURSELF WHAT YOU NEED.

There is so much more to life than finding a boy or girl who piques your romantic interest. Fall in love with yourself, your pets, your schoolwork, your job, your house, your front yard, your old playlists, your food, your bedtime routine. Fall in love with the way your friends laugh and how scared of the dark you can be and how annoying people get when they make you repeat yourself.

There’s so much more to life than falling in love with a significant other. Experience all of that and good things, maybe even romantic things, will follow.

But don’t wait up for it. Live your life and love yourself like you’re not waiting for someone else to come along and do it. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.

Friendly note –

Try to distinguish between when you’re just lonely and when you really miss someone.

Sometimes it’s hard to spend time with yourself. Become someone you love spending time with. Be alone with yourself.

And don’t get yourself in to something if you’re just at a low moment. Other people have feelings, too.